Lunar Eclipse Chapter 3 Edward's POV

Chapter 3: Mirrored Self

My Feelings toward this chapter: This chapter was one of my favorites to right, because I got to get inside of Edward's head. I love being in Carlisle head as well. It was however a very intense chapter for me to write. It was written during a very emotional time for me. Sept. 26th 2009 I lost my dog to a group of wild dogs. Then on Oct. 4th 2009 my uncle died. Then at the end of the month of Oct. I lost a childhood friend to a hunting accident. So I had a very in depth feel on how Edward would feel being away from Bella, filling in that blank. Though I cried while writing this it happy me to grieve.

Playlist fact: Haunted by Evanescence, Shadows by Red and Take It All Away by Red were the songs I listened to. I listened to Red a lot that month and in November.

Edward POV

"You've tasted companionship; it's not so easily thrown away."

Shaking the sound of my own voice from my head, I started toward the door. I needed to hunt before I lost my mind. I then caught a whisper of a voice on the wind. It was a voice I knew well, one I could never forget. The sound of the soft voice made me freeze.

"I love you Edward. Forgive me."

"Bella?"

I turned toward the sound of her voice. I'm not sure why I did it. What did I expect to find?

What I saw caused my mouth to feel like a desert. She was here! Somehow she had found me.

I took two steps toward her, only to realize Bella wasn't solid; she was transparent, ghost-like. My heart ached as large fissures erupted over the surface of my still heart. She wasn't real. The image before me was no different than the one, of myself that had spoken to me mere seconds ago. This was not the girl I had left behind, she looked lost and broken Anger at myself for hoping she was real came first. It was then replaced by the broken and empty feeling from before.

Breathing was becoming more difficult causing me to stop altogether. It was two seconds later when I realized that I was crying.

Turning my back on the fading image of my fragile little human, I sped out the door. I had to find my sanity again – I needed to hunt. Yet every time I had my prey within my sight and grasp, I would hear her soft voice whisper in the wind.

'Edward, I love you. Come back to me.'

Shaking the remains of her voice from my head, I tried again to focus on the hunt. As I stopped inside the clearing I could hear the pounding of their hearts. Venom flooded my mouth at the thought of tasting their blood on my lips. Closing my eyes I focused on finding the strongest heart beat. I needed a challenge and I was hoping that I could find it in one of the deer.

My eyes snapped open once I found the strong thumping heart I was looking for. At first I had thought that my prey was male, and then as I drew closer, I realized that it was a doe. There was no masking the fear that was causing her heart to pound wildly in her chest. She knew she was being hunted and was fleeing for her life. As I started to close in on the doe, my movement barely caused a leaf to flutter to the ground. I was running beside her seconds later, before I lunged and took her in my arms. The deer's coat was soft and buttery in my cold hands. One flick of a finger was all I needed to end its life and steal its life's blood from its body. Out of the corner of my eye I caught the reflection of something familiar in its deep brown eyes.

'Edward, forgive me. I'll never leave you. I'm yours forever.'

I loved all of this chapter, but this is by far my favorite excerpt.